Lost In Beauty-

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

Awwww Back when a bitch used to work out.... Good times.... I realized today when i looked in my diary that i had so many writings that i havent posted... Yes in my last blog on Monday i mentioned that I wouldnt be disclosing much about my personal life... And that still remains.. Why might you ask well aside from it BEING MY BLOG... Ummmm Thats enough reason.. Most people who read my blog are either good friends and fam but i know i have some strays.. And for that I have to be careful. I seem to have alot of haters for one reason or another.. I dunno if its my chinky eyes or my attitude that persways then to just lap up everything about me and then try whatever they can do to make the person who might like me and think im cool to think otherwise.. AHHHH THE LUSH...... Anyway on to my topic its funny how smells can provoke one... I mean some smells are like a Sexual turnon to some people some people have smells that comfort them,,, some have smells that remind them of being home etc u get where im going with this.. I am a sucker for Love... Love movies Love lines Watching other people that are truly in love all of this just makes me soooo much stronger in wanting to be a better lover or be a better person to fall in love with if that makes sense... Im such a sucker that any love movie im there Romeo &Juliet.... Black Orpheaus I know some of yall dont know nothing bout that LOL and Even though i talked Mad shit about Twilight I did peep it online and The love is very apparent in that movie and it was very inviting... Now back to the scents I know im a scatter brain deal with it... The scent that I love the most is LAVENDER... OMG LAVENDER when i was a baby my mom had that scent in my room and had the candles in my room its just been a scent that i grew up with.. And it does something to me.. So when i was in Seattle last year..during my stroll within the market at pike place, I had the good fortune of coming upon a fragrance lover’s dream: a lavender stand called, all things lavender. I have never seen so many lavender products for sale, in one place. I felt like a kid in a candy store, and I have a cousin who loves lavender more than anyone you’ll ever meet that I needed to get a gift for, I wont put his name in here cause he prolly will think it makes him look soft since he has this im the shit and macho man attitude LOL so my head was spinning with all the possibilities and from the soothing aroma. I settled for a few goodies for her-she’s preggers and lavender is used to induce labor, it turns out- and a lavender mask for me.Yes i know i dont have any kids and prolly wont for another couple years maybe a year Ill be done with school do the math anywhoo i still like to look at things and read things about how to make your pregnacy better and so forth u think its weird fuck u .. anywhoo the suitably, purple-dread locked clerk handed me a brochure with my change, and I walked off opening it as I moved towards a window facing the moody waters below. The picture on the front was that of a farm- an actual lavender farm- called, angel farm. The photo depicted a perfectly weathered barn, surrounded by rows of welcoming lavender. I wanted to jump into that photo, bury my face in the comforting blossoms, and allow my hair to become entangled in the gentle, blur of violet. Upon further inspection, it turns out all the products are from various lavender farms in sequim, Washington-the lavender capitol of north America. There is even going to be a lavender festival (gasp!triple-bypass!) in july!!!!! So, me and my cousin and my friend and I aren’t the only obsessed people out there. There’s really something to this phenomenon!
Anywhoo last time i was back home Which was in July I make sure each time i go home i hit the beach... My parents have a beach house kind of a getaway house or whatever I had them drop me off.. And i spent the weekend there with just me and my Love.... Which is my dog Merlin... I will add a pic of him uptop... Thats the one man yes i call my dog a man that has never broken my heart... I LOVE HIM.. hes not just a dog to me. Anywhoo we stayed from Fri and my parents came to pick me up sunday... Me and merlin did daily walks on the beach however on sat i got the urge to walk around 7 that night dunno why just did... So i put on my shorts tank that says MISFITS... YES i listent to rock im a free soul... and left i sat on a log and laid down while merlin ran around on the beach sniffing the dead jellyfish that washed up on the shore.. I just started thinking about LOVE... and alll the things that come with it... The good and the Bad. The arguments the makeup the love scenes The Love you share with that person How badly you want the bond to become stronger between you and that person the times when you can look in their eyes until you fall asleep all of this i was thinking about.... I dont even know why but it stayed on my mind.... Its when you want to reach inside the person Like WAKEEE UP You are who i want to talk to.... Its like in that uncomfortable silence when your heart says
I know this is all-of-the-sudden, but your image just speaks to my -s-o-u-l------- Things Like that....Its that happy place when your with that person the holding of the hand in public the slight kisses you share with them not caring who sees the little ass grabs that make u giggle.... Shit like that makes me MELT... Fuck im such a lush LOL.... Its just how my love falls :-) Like I only want to bury you in the hot tub so no one else can get you... that kinda love decipher that....

Also When you have time, please check out www.HaitiChildren.com. Our little family has contributed to them at Christmas time, giving gifts to others instead of ourselves. Again, any of you that want to suggest links of charitable organizations, give em' up! Even in this scary-ass economic climate, we have more than most of the so-called "third world" could ever dream of having.

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Monday, November 24, 2008

GO DUCKS!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HOW I KNOW EVERYBODY ON THAT FRONT ROW... WHY DID I MOVE???? RIDDLE ME THIS?? CAUSE I CANT... *SIGH*
Whats upppppp Its been I know a couple weeks since i updated this SHIIIIEEETTTT Alot has happened since then ALOT other than school licking my ass Literally UGH I rather not describe anymore of the fuckery i have to deal with that. IM Slowly losing my mind like Kayne Ranting bitch ass Im sorry I dont care for him Hes deff diff from when he first came out and Im just gonna say this and end it. How the fuck can you bitch about how u dont get awards and how u are underappreciated and blahh blah fucking Blah And then the last few awards you have won you dedicate to Sucking dick turned going to be doing rock cause he doesnt have a ghostwriter i got my lip pierced bitch ass nigga LIL WAYNE Get da FUGGG outta here SMFH. Anyway Moving on... I decided to express my feelings on a few points as random as they may be i really dont wanna get into my personal thoughts on this blog and i might not for a while.. My personal decision Plus some of yall noisy mothafuckas will read some of these and form your own fucked up shit then u think u know me SMH Anywhoo I see every body and they childs babymomma went to go see the TWILIGHT ok WTF is the big deal id rather stay home n wait till Sunday to watch TRUE BLOOD And im PISSED that the season is over so damn quick UGHHH i dont wanna wait to the summer :-(

I wanted to go, but everyone told me to make sure and go to the 8 o'clock show. That shit is too early for me. They said that was when the tween vampires were out in full force. One of my friends said some 14-year-old bitch wouldn't stop crying and shrieked whenever Robert Pattinson was on the screen. And some of those girls already memorized the lines and shit. Apparently, the hos in the audience are more entertaining than the movie itself. It sounds like I'll need to be drunk, stoned and suffering from a minor concussion to deal with this fuckery.

I didn't go to see this shit, but tons of whores did, because it was the #1 movie at the box office with $70.5 million. That's a whole lot of allowance dollars. Not surprisingly, the sequel is already in the works and so it starts again.....

Here's the full top 10 movies of the weekend:

1. Twilight, $70.6 million
2. Quantum of Solace, $27.4 million
3. Bolt, $27 million
4. Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa, $16 million
5. Role Models, $7.2 million
6. Changeling, $2.6 million
7. High School Musical 3: Senior Year, $2 million
8. Zack and Miri Make a Porno, $1.7 million
9. The Boy in the Striped Pajamas, $1.67 million
10. The Secret Life of Bees, $1.3 million

WTF is The Boy in the Striped Pajamas? That sounds like a Michael Jackson documentary. I dont even remember seeing previews for that but hell i havent really seen tv the past two weeks cause i breath in bullshit and cough out paperwork....

IN other news I am in Love with Drake's Song Sooner than later check that shit out its HOT!!! Hes not big here in the US cause hes a Canadian artist.. And theres really no canadian artist big here he crossed over when he had the replacement girl song with Trey Songz and trey songz is wha?? A US R&B singer EXACTLY Just like craig david was the shit when his first cd crossed over but US doesnt give a shit about u really unless u ARE HERE.. sadddddd but true... ON another note i dont think people are taking this recession serious UMMM U NEED TO u need to save your MONEY ASAP people are losing jobs left and fucking right LITERALLY and its gonna be worse after Christmas... So seriously.. Dont go out balling out on shit cause u might be out of a job next and everything is so fucking cheap because of the damn recession... Thanks BUSH SO FUCKING MUCH NO REALLY... FOR ALL THE FUCKERY YOU HAVE DONE. OK those are my thoughts LOve em or Leave em Or Dont give A Twat... Thats fine to... Im in my Fuck whatever u have to say or think mode... Been in it for a few weeks now Dont ask why cause u cant help stay in your position and thats to be a reader and thats it... Until Next time Lads....

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Saturday, November 1, 2008

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Recently Some things have caught my attention and made me think.. How important is love to some people. I know soooooo many females and to me so many is more than about 4 and thats alot considering the facts these females are in fucked up relationships now let me explain my opinon of a fucked up relationship... well first lets define a relationship well what I think is a relationship
A relationship is a connection that is made with two individuals which can lead to love, marriage life long commitment etc. Now that i have summed that up a fucked up relationship to me Mind you these are just how i see things the shit aint law. a fucked up relationship is where one of the parties man or woman is involved in a relationship duhhhh and they are never around. Only around when they want to come around. So basically they are not there for their significant other and are out doing lord knows what. Now the woman in the party knows that 9 times ot of 10 they are out doing BULLSHIT but she denies it to herself and around her friends because she wants to in her heart believe that he isnt doing bullshit. But in the back of her mind she does know this because i am here to tell you most women know they have dogs they already know this. Another example is the man that is always with his woman but he treats her like shit (Calling her names making fun of her body saying he could do better if he wasnt with her and usually the stay at home guy doesnt have a job and lives off the woman!!!! Can you fucking believe this ignant shit? Not only does he talk shit to the woman but he cheats and basically on a weekly to monthy basis.. Do the women know about this most of them have a clue.. yes but they accept this as long as he is at home.Another is when A NIGGA NEVER CLAIMS YOU,,,,, IF THIS IS GOING ON YOU NEED TO ADDRESS THIS SHIT LADIES Now lets clear this up ladies and men cause some men are in fucked up relationships with women.. Women do some careless heartless shit as well. LOVE IS NOT WHEN YOU ARE BEING EMOTIONALLY ABUSED IF YOU CRY MORE THAN YOU SMILE THAT IS NOT LOVE IF YOU HAVE TO SIT DOWN AND THINK AM I GENERALLY HAPPY WITH THIS PERSON THAT IS NOT LOVE IT IS DOWNRIGHT AMAZING TO ME HOW PEOPLE MEN AND WOMEN HOW LOW THEY WILL STOOP JUST TO SAY I HAVE A BOYFRIEND OR I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND.Just amazing...People waste 4 and 5 yrs of their life simply because they dont understand there are to many people good hearted people in this world for you to be stuck with DUMBASS!!! Love is going to be hard yes but you should not be crying yourself to sleep everynight you should not just be dealing with this cause you need to feel wanted.. your only hurting yourself.... it isnt love that you are in thats for damn sure and thats another thing im not even sure some of these people that claim they are in love know what love is. Im not ashamed to admit that the couple times i thought i was in love I WAS NOT. I Was just feeling appreciated but it was not love! And i only found this out through time.. I Now know what love is and the feeling that i have gotten isnt anything like the feeling i got the times i thought i was in love before.....IT just saddens me to see people in these positions that wont help themselves.. and you know there hurting.. SADDD SADDD Well i had to let that out cause thats been on my mind for a min now.. In other news ive been fuckin sick all this week i have no idea whats wrong with me... I voted on Friday glad to get that shit out the way... IF you havent please make sure u vote on tuesday if you are at work you are allowed to leave to vote alot of people dont know this but THEY HAVE TO LET YOU LEAVE TO VOTE This is a law believe it or not... SO DONT FALL FOR THE OKIE DOKE! Thank You! On another note i am so sick of this new rap shit is driving me INSANE black people please get it together.. this is why i stay on my R&B tip im playing DONNELL JONES RIGHT NOW GOOD QUALITY SHIT NONE OF THIS BULLSHIT SMH Back to my orginal post is Love that important to indure all this BULLSHIT that is listed above to you?

Another damn issue i want to mention while im on it Why the fuck do people look at pictures and say oh u can do better than that WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO JUDGE????? IF someone wants to date a fucking goat it is there perogative u aint nobody to say that And what makes your opinon just the best. If that person is happy with the person they are with keep that shit to yourself not only does it make you look like a jealous prick or bitch but it makes u look real fucking stupid !
That is all for now................ Have a good Sunday And i will be back on wed When we will have a new PREZ!

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