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    Monday, June 1, 2009






    Choosy Loverrrrr Your sooo Choosey babyyyy Boy im SO proud of yaaaa Im so Glad you chose Me baby babyyyy and Ill make you so happy.... CHOOOSY CHOOSSYYY LUVAAAA
    Been stuck in my head ALL DAY!

    Well Summer has started and I must say Where has this year gone? I mean dang My b day is Friday and this is the first time in years i must say im really not excited about it. I mean of course i know why but its still awkward. Of course people say that the new year will be so much better than the last and all these wonderful great things will happen, but to me this year has sucked worse than 08 did and that really blows. Things has happen that i deff Didnt even IMAGINE would but that's life right. Everything can not go your way wasn't intended to so get over it.. Yeah much easier said than done. I have about a year left in school so that's something i am very happy about. Im so beyond ready to be done. Get a job work for a year then transfer out of dodge. I am still unhappy about alot of things but im just praying that the lord helps me be content. When you are used to something you want things to stay that way but things dont work like that i guess? Well im working full time and doing summer school and i must say this is a definite test of skill and ability. Wasn't quite ready for this this class is going by SUPER FAST but imma do it and imma pass it that's just bottom line. Other than that im t
    rynna stay on top of things and be strong , its all a working progress. I must say i am ready for July to go to Vegas i need to get away and not think about shit im worrying about Im so ready to see my BFF Quoia her and daven really make me forget or make me feel like i have no worries even if its just for a day. Sooo this will be really good for me. I also apologize to the few readers i do have that have been checking in with me asking why i haven't posted or why i have been absent for so long i am truly sorry, got wrapped into my studies and now its the same only work as well but i will make some time and update a lot more often. As far as my video blogs go i dunno if i'm quite ready for that although i am on Twitter and I will be doing the bubble tweets. Which is a bubble with a little video of me they are usually 30 seconds think whenever i do a blog i will either put an encouraging message out there or something still working on that. Until Next time Peace & Blessings.

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    Sunday, March 15, 2009




    Ok so i havent updated in a min I KNOW THIS MANNNNN when i mean my ass has been swamped with homework I mean it i have not had the time to get on here to update... All im thinking about is Spring Break i wont be doing shit but hitting up memphis but hey its a week out of school. Then im thinking about this summer and FUN IN THE SUN... I plan to be in my 2 peice i have been workin out like a mad woman. Oh and VEGAS IN JULY WHOOP WHOOP!!!!
    Anywhoo there u pretty much know my summer plans oh i will also be attending school full time and working HA Catch up hoes im trynna graduate in a year so we can do this real fly and fancy and get the shit over with. Now since i have missed a few blog updates im going to put my FUCKERY TITLE All in one. I decided im going to do this once maybe twice a month. There are alot of things i see on different websites that make me go why the fuck did this person do this and its fuckery all together so I wil be sharing it you people :-) Thank me later. This particular video is number 1. On my list. Now im not sure WHY beyonce is the lead to all gay tangstars but hey who am I . Now dont get it twisted some gay folks can get it.. This particular video however in my opinon shows someone who isnt getting it much at all and needs to just let it go.. Ive sent more than 5 emails to Jesus And I know he thinks this is a mess as well.... BTW am I the only one that isnt feeling beyonce music anymore???

    Moving on... I am a member of twitter.com whoop whoop been there for about maybe 3 monthsw now anywhoo there are alot of dlist and alist celebs on there and if your twinkle in your eye must twitch you can follow them keep up with whats going on dadadadada.... Now of course i added megan good OF COURSE and i know its her real page Cause my sissy summer told me so NOW Plus E Badu is on that bitch with her man Jay Electronica and she puts out on blast whoever is fake... Now Megan has been in the studio and i was like HUH u 27 u just now getting in the studio everyone that knows megan knows her sister was in that group ISYSIS from back in the day did a song with Jadakiss Day and Night it was pretty hot anyway they didnt make it but Megan says shes excited so we will see how this goes!!!
    I also want to give it up to Solange people didnt want to give her the props she deserved I liked her cd and i like her style The Bish is BADDDDD I dont care what nobody says and her shoe game is beyond sick!!! I mean seriously.... And shes come a long way from the red micros she used to rock she got the lacefronts and the yaki down!! got to give her props on that.
    As far as lacefronts go i want to say i love them tried one myself for about 3 weeks LIKED IT ALOT and u cant even tell its a lacefront!!! Ill add a pic up here in a min along with one of solange just cause!!! So im sure u guys can tell who is who anyway thats my lacefront i had in MUAHAHAHAH LOVED IT AND WILL DO IT AGAIN Cause folks out here and caught on to that yet they all on sew ins!! I hate sew ins so anything easier IM THERE!!! Well thats it now hooked yall up with the fuckery of the month whats going on with me whats going on with Twitter i mean what else could u want???

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    Monday, March 2, 2009




    SO quick update on my retarded ass life... Everyone has something poppin off for Spring Break and once again not only do i have no plans but im not gonna be doing SHIT!!!... School sucks.... I had to drop math cause there was just no way i was gonna get it... And my classes so far are going but not as i would like them to go. My mind is just everywhere else but where it should be. So i pretty much know its gonna be me being super stressed and super pushing my ass until i get where i want to be right before finals UGH i hate being like that... I just want to be done with school. In other news... alot of of my fam has been passing recently and has really opened up my eyes. Well let me not say alot let me say two of my aunts and uncles my grandmother brother Uncle Herman Died unexpectatly in December and Her sister died this last past thurs. My grandmother means the world to me little things like my little wings i draw outside of my eye that korean influence she instilled in me at a early age. She had a stroke back in 2001 and since then its never been the same she has since gotten worse. But for a woman that never drank or cussed all she did was read the bible and tell me to love myself and tell me about my grandfather i never met i looked up to her as if she did no wrongs which in my world she didnt. Now im out here and shes staying with my mother's sister in Toledo and im hoping i can see her soon... So thats stressing me out... In other news ive realized the longer u care and love for someone the more jealous u get and its almost without noticing just little things... and when i notice myself doing that i find myself really tripping. I know jealousy usually stems from not trusting someone in a certain way... butttttttt I beg to differ i believe jealousy stems by itself at times just to fuck with you. Just another piece of bull you have to deal with Because i do trust sometimes to easy regardless of my past situations... But once i trust i do trust. Unless i know for sure i cant trust you then we have a problem... In other news i finally got my lacefront wig and i must say i like this better than a quick weave and damn sure a sew in cause i HATE sew ins... Its so great having a cousin who is a hairstylist you get your hair done for free whatever u want or for the LOWWWWWWWWW LOW while all the other hoodbunnies spend almost 150 to 200.... HA! Im also addicted to VH1 Sober house I love that show.. AND IM STILL KILLING TO SEE TRUE BLOOD NEW SEASON AHHHHHH BTW IM BEYOND JEALOUS AT MYAMEE Cause she looks dead on Megan Good UGHHH I know i said i was gonna do a video but wasnt up to it today but when i do it will be uploaded on here! Im also pretty excited for the Sephoria And BeBe store to open up down the street i will be over there like White on Rice.. Also this Spring i will be getting a couple tatts So i will no longer be a virgin to the tatt world so that is a new ME... One of my best friends was like why arent you happy with your looks your beautiful and although I hear her say that... Im still Dissastisfied :-(

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    Thursday, February 12, 2009



    So this month so far has been a damn trip.... I got a lot of shit going on the people around me got a lot of shit going on school is getting in my everlasting NERVE Shit the two are three i got left....Ive been trying be noisy and figure out what diff people have going on for Vday i love to hear what other folks have on the table its sooo sweet and cute to me.. I must say my last valentines day was my first and it was sooo memorable i was happy :-). I also need to ask why can i not stop playing Bobby Valentino Beep Beep? Not the one with wayne i hate him with a passion the one with Joc And im also diggin Pleasure P Boyfriend Song which is odd cause i wasn't a big fan of his group maybe hes not that bad as a solo artist like i thought he would be?
    In other news im in LOVE with the Chelsea Lately show that cunt is funny as hell and she doesnt even try to be... Thats the classic part.... Now everybody wants to add there 40 cent about the whole Rihanna Chris issue, my whole thing is this shit happens every damn day but its blown out of porportion because its Rihanna and Chris FUCKING BROWN... NOW I HAVE TO ADD THIS BECAUSE IT HIGHLY PISSES ME OFF. HOW THE FUCK CAN THEY TAKE CHRIS BROWN MUSIC OFF THE SHELVES BUT RKELLY FUCKING UNDERAGE GIRLS PEDOPHILE ASS CAN STAY.. THAT MAKES NOOO FUCKING SENSE TO ME... AND IT HIGHLY IRRITATES ME......

    Now on to better things im sure u were wondering what the picture is about. I saw it on a website and please let me express how my love for animals poured alllll the fuck out I am like a puddle on the floor after seeing this picture of a fireman giving some water to a parched koala bear. Look at the koala's little tongue! And the koala's paw on the fireman's hand! The koala is so polite and so thankful! Like a little person! This makes me want to truckjack a Sparklett's water truck and drive through the ocean to Australia.

    The koala friend was rescued by firefighters after it was found roaming a burned up forest 90 miles from Melbourne. The koala friend had burnt paws, but she's doing better now and will hopefully be released back into the wild in about 5 months. I wish it would be released into my arms in 5 months instead. But wait. Do they scratch at human faces? If so, I'll just "awww" from afar.

    Also, friends and other have been sending me links on where to donate whatever you can to the victims and animal friends of the Victoria bushfires,

    Well thats all for now im watching 48hrs.... so im FOCUSED....

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    Sunday, February 8, 2009


    SO this weekend has been absolutely crazy... It kills me that people think cause OBAMA is president racisim will die down i personally don't think racism will ever go away its always gonna be there period... People are gonna think what they wanna think regardless if u give them something to talk about or not.... I get easily stressed ive been wanting a dog now for a while i followed a ad in the paper and was under the impression that i was gonna get a 5 week year old maltese puppy picked the puppy up and it was beyong smelly. I should know better because the lady was a funky ass bitch but i wanted a puppy so bad i wasn't in my right mind i got back to my house with the puppy and realized the shit was funky i washed the puppy three times with soap and it still smelled horrific i couldn't feed the puppy and she wouldn't drink it was whining all night to the point i couldn't even take it anymore (GO TO SLEEP) SO i ended up taking the dog and leaving it in a area where i know somebody would pick it up cause obviously I couldnt do anything for it.... I feel bad about it but what can i do.... Im also trynna work on my emoitions why i am so damn emotional.... so many questions so little answers... Im sick of school ive been praying for my emotonal distress ive been praying about school I think maybe i need a break and work and pay for my school i feel so bad about that yeah my parents make a good living but i just dont like to be so damn dependent... My mom is 61 my dad is 65 shit i need to get my shit together... I need to be an adult... LORD IM STRESSED

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    Thursday, January 29, 2009



    Sup Blog World? Its been a min since my last update.... which was a little after New Years i believe... I have been really focused on this blog update i have been through alot of emotions have written down my feelings and different scenarios/scenes events that have happened to me.. or are happening to me now and figured it was time for me to update my blog finally.... So i was in Barnes and Nobles earlier today in a beanbag chair.. Anybody who knows me knows i love that store and can stay in it all day... Ended up leaving and coming home to finish writing in my journal but it was a nice stay.. my latte was refreshing as well. I have figured out that im at this point in life where im afraid of love... its not like a light i can click on or off it just is what it is as my dad would put it... Im very picky and i will admit that... I also want things to tend to go my way which some people might take as selfish or wrong but i just want things to be right... Relationships are hard i know this i also know that if ur not ready for one dont rush into one.. cause then your ship will really crash and burn... Just when is enough enough? When do you know that this person will be your one and only your last etc etc. I see sooo many people who spend 2,4,5 years with one person and they still arent engaged or married and they get to that last year and break up... what have you accomplished other than wasting your time and their time. when all alone one of the partners knew it wasnt going to work. And you cant get that time back ever. Its like being in Prison that time you do is just lost.. Period...
    If your in a relationship and your cons outweigh your pro's your in for some trouble...Also ladies and men stop lowering yourself i see so many people who are doing so well in life but you are with someone who is the exact opposite... never lower your standards.. because then thats more BS you will have to put up with later on in life. Trust me on this one...
    I also wonder when i will come out of my shell when will i not be so afraid of love and what it has to offer? Its not like i can rush out of it. And then i also know i have less than 2 years and i will be relocating. Should i just forget about all my options and just start over brand new? Or should I take what i have and hope it can follow me? SO many questions i have in my book and not one answer. I know at the end it will all follow with what my heart wants to do. But what is right for me to do. Im so tender and precious about time. Time is of the essence? Is it not? Love is so strong... And can come in many different patterns. Do you know the diff between lust and love? Do you know the diff between like and love?

    Well Blog I am gonna end it here... i got a ton of math homework on my ass i will leave you with this pray for me as i pray for you. I will soon be doing monthly kyte messeges talking about my blogs for the month or summing up my feelings to whoever cares lol... its a video type blog i thought it was kinda cool. My first one will be this sat 1/31/09 so look out for that. I will post the link or something in here. You can also chat with me on there if i am LIve..I would love to talk to some of you individually is as well :-) I will soon have a dog.. Her name is Marilyn So expect to see her on my blogs as well... Peace Love & Blessings.

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    Friday, January 2, 2009




    So i figured that in 09 i have made changes so this year i sat and wrote what i think i am bottles up into a a page, paragraph or what ever.....I'm most likely someone you won't understand at first, but I truly am a genuine person. I mean well in everything I say and do. I'm complicated (who isn't?) and I have my issues, like other people have their own. I'm human. We all get a little crazy. We all get a little emotional about things we usually wouldn't. It happens. I love who I have become today and every day I'm growing into a stronger, independent WOMAN. I will not sugarcoat it and act like something I'm not. Usually I sit back and just observe people and watch them...cuz people are so funny sometimes. I love to laugh and snuggle up with someone just to be lazy.

    People don't quite GET ME. They think I have millions of close friends and tons of guys swarming me, lining up to date me. Not true. In fact, I like keeping my friends minimal and guys...well...they are just a mystery. I have become accustomed to being THAT ONE GIRL. I'm sensitive and I have a HUGE heart. I don't like games and I don't fall for them easily. Don't try to play me, because I can figure it out easily. I do not care if you think you are the hottest thing ever or you could get any girl you want, I'm not a fool. I'm so modest. I know I look good but I am NOT going to flash that in peoples' faces. I am just confident within myself and I appreciate everyone else's beauty around me. No need for comparisons, thank you.

    I like for people just be REAL no matter what you have done in the past and how many mistakes you've made. As long as you've realized it was wrong and you are making up for the time lost because of it, then so be it. I'm not here to judge anyone. My life isn't peaches and creme.

    All in all, talk to me. I'm very open-minded and willing to discuss all different ranges of topics.

    I do believe everyone judges and in a way i think its almost human nature... I also want people to accept me for the things i want to do and the choices I make... I could care less if you dont agree with the decision because at the end of the day your not in my shoes and its sooo easy to say what you should think should happen when you are just a little snail looking in :-)

    As far as relationships go i figure ill say this their is a big difference between desire and relationships I think about things like this alot because they puzzle me.When you truly love someone with love comes respect. With respect comes responsibility and with responsibility comes hard decisions when entering into a relationship or union. Desire seems to always pop up everywhere you turn right? The woman that you work with, the man that persists on buying you a drink in the club, the woman that continuously texts you even while knowing you are involved and doesn't feel that YOU are that serious about your lover. Well all these things are tests of the will. Can you control yourself even when you are not in your lover's presence? How far can you go if not at all? Or how do you know when you are crossing the line. These are all questions that show weakness because deep down inside you know what you would and wouldn't do, and yet you consistently make the wrong decisions? Which is another example of two opposites coming together perfectly because "consistency" and "wrong" seem to go hand in hand allot of times when we are making these decisions. Honestly put yourself in your spouse's shoes and ask yourself if you could be in that moment with them when they take that number, when they engage in over the top conversations, when they get a little loose with their emails would you enjoy watching that? Would you enjoy seeing that other person kiss someone with that SAME passionate kiss that you THOUGHT y'all only shared? Regardless if your heart lies with them is not right to live right even when you could easily live wrong? Its so easy to add someone with no meaning into your life..right? Or is it just "physically" easy but "emotionally" upsetting and confusing? You are free to make your own call. But I can tell you this, the more confusion you add into your life the more confusion you will have with every breath that you take when thinking of that person that you love and care for. Allot of times we take problems and we spread them throughout our day, even mixing them with other outside problems with jobs, car, kids, etc. So next time you think that the grass is greener consider the fact that you cant see how far green the grass goes
    Its almost like black/white. So opposite and yet they come together to make something so perfect. Yin and Yang is the sign of prosperity and tranquility, the union of two offset vibes that come together to bleed of comfort and stability. Discipline and desire can bring forth great rewards if you choose to live your life and expand your personal growth past what you see, but get in touch with how you really feel about the things that are going on in your life.
    IF you are with somebody and the you have to search and wonder why you are with that person that means the love is no longer there and your grabbing on anything you can think of for purpose of you staying with that person.... if you are with someone and its the exact opposite you still get the butterflys when you kiss them and could be with them everyday.... Just apart of true love <3333>


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